>Impying I could've made a journal like 4 months ago, but this guy decided otherwise.
ahaha..

Also a very-grand-big-late Merry Christmas and Happy New year, to those I haven't said it to before! ^^


anyway, it's since October now, and where are we almost at? at March o-o (god I'm late)
Everything is on it's place, and runs.
€450 rent every month. and I hardly run out of food supplies. xD;;
Also I've got a lot more privacy and freedom, because I no longer have roommates that bother me, even on a stressfull workday, and you're all like 'fuck off, I've had enough uneasy things today as it is' - and yet the irony hits you like a cinderblock on your face, as they still knock on your door, like hey have some unpleasant business with you.

Shit just got real!

I suppose that goes without saying..
but on the downside though, there's one of them I'm gonna miss, which I left behind.
And she gave me quite company, watching movies/Animes with, and discussing about Anime/Manga related things, and say hi every once in a while. you know how that stuff goes.
Although we're not far apart.
I just moved a few blocks away, and I visit sometimes, so it's not a total loss.
you could say; it's a win on win situation.

Beware of long content of story and shit, in case if you care to read, then go ahead

Everything has their ups and downs.
And that's also how I still feel nowadays, especially the latter, but I try to make the best of it.
Considering we're already going trough a rough time, and it just flat-out cannot be avoided.
It's the recession, and everyone is dealing with it. (except for the richfags)
I'm also single again (ever since July), some of you may know that person that I've been with for about 3,5 years.
but It's safe to say I'm no longer with her.

It's quite sad, because after a lot of nutty fights and arguments, she decided to part ways, and I had no choice but to accept.
But we're still friends, so that's good.
she can still put up with me and stick around, considering what person I can be when I'm not in a good mood unlike now.
Thanks btw (in case if you read this)

Meanwhile a bit after I moved, I met a new girlfriend, for about a week I think.
And she was 10 years older then me. though I've had a good time.
that ended until she broke up with me, which has upset me, because she stated that she couldn't find the click between us, while she asked me out in the first place.
the next day I completely wiped her off my mind, and got over her, accepted this fate. :3

However.. here comes the funny part:
a week later, when I left my comp on, she contacted me again.
I was gone, doing groceries, where it didn't take long before I already returned, and red her message that goes
'hey honey' - 'I miss you, and I was wrong' - 'I want you back'
some hearts were added along those lines.

Anyway, as I read her message, my mind goes: (oh fuck, she wants me back)
This made me sort of happy, just the thought of it.
And guess what my reaction was?

I said No, as tempting as her offer was, I had to decline it.
And it made me nothing but happy and proud of myself, that this was the right choice after all.

You don't throw a boomerang, and then expect it to get back at you. (well in those cases, you might wanna cover your head, but that's beside the point)
That's basically my reason why I rejected her. ;[
Ever since then, up to now, I'm still single, and I'm pretty happy and confident about the fact.
Cause I don't need it right now, it's a nice feeling. but sometimes you need a break.  which is what I'm having now :/

Enough with relationships xD;

Not to mention, the best way to expess my feelings is whenever I'm not happy nor sad. :I
However these 2 feelings can be compatible, and that's my current feeling right now.
And I don't write these things to make it seem like you (the reader out there) are having a good time, and enjoy reading this.
No, not even to make it sound like I need sympathy from you.  if you wanna see baww threads, go to 4chan.
You see enough of those. o-o

Not far an example of that.

It just needs to be put in place. And this is probably why I feel like putting up this journal right now, and say 'hey guys, this is what happened, how I'm doing'
I'm not a sad person enough but I can still share it with you though. :3
And as there hardly happens anything in 4 months, I've decided that I'm doing it right now.
so here you go. xD

let's move on....

This year and last year, I also met new people. (neighbours)
Another one of them is a good friend, and she likes Anime/Manga/Games/Drawing too.
I've also met her in real already once, when we we're going to the movies. (let's fucking do this more often D8) -moan-

Anyway It's great to have someone to talk to. >;3
I'm glad to have met you, and you're part of the family now.
It's good to have you on board, nakama o 3o
-brofist-

And no, I'm not talking to myself, and also I do not happen to be schizophrenic c: (I'm sorry if that may offend some of you people, I have no bad intentions of speaking ill nor making fun of people, who have this disorder, just in case)

That's basically my 4 months life happening, in a nutshell.
So how was your day?